losing still

Today I wore something I have not been able to wear for at least 3 years and it was actually big on me.

I also discovered today that my black pumps are too big now. I guess my feet lost weight too?

Kind of weird huh.

33 pounds down as of today and I still wonder if it's all just something others see but I don't seem to. I see the clothes getting big but I see the same fat person in the mirror.

Maybe when I have lost more I will begin to see it too.

I will have to discover who I am beneath it all. The fat I have been hiding behind. It kind of scares me first scares me that I wont' succeed and also scares me that I will.

 

 

 

— Kareen
Sun, Jan 6th, 2008 · 6:38pm

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