Sick

I am sick and I don't like it.

I have a job to do and people depending on me and here I am at home in pain and feeling miserable and guilty.

I am suppose to be the healthy one, the one who takes care of everyone.

Maybe part of my problem is that I somehow think I am indispensable and therefore do too much. I know that is part of it.

Between sleeping today, I shall ponder this. I know that my family depends on me and most of them do need my help but maybe there are ways I can pull back a bit and let them fly on their own for a while. I have been so stressed over stuff and that has probably made me more vulnerable to this virus. Yes, here I am blaming myself for a virus, how sick is that?

I have always wanted to do my best at everything because that is what I was taught but I think I have been over doing because I know that I also love the praise of a job well done.

hmm, false confessions day is later in March but today has become confession day for me.

— Kareen
Mon, Feb 26^th, 2007 · 6:33am ↑

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