Pondering Lonliness
Today I was struck by how lonely life can be.
The need to belong is one of the depeest human needs which is why some of us try to belong any way we can to feel a part of something.
Today, I was made aware once again that in many ways I seem to be living on the edge of belonging to some of the groups I am a part of.
How easily I can be forgotten or replaced because I can not always be in attendance to everything because I must be at the attendance of my family. There I am needed, sometimes almost needed too much? No not too much but sometimes I wish there was someone out there who cared enough to give me a helping hand with the needs of my family. I can't really blame others as they have there own set of needs and wants. It's perhaps asking too much for someone to help out now and then.
I know there are some who are perhaps afraid to ask if I want help in case I come to depend on them beyond what they are willing to give.
There are certain ones who always seem to go together for lunch. They are my friends but they don't ask me to come along.
I know I could initiate a request but I don't know if I could take the rejection if they said no.
I am a social animal and I need something beyond the social chit chat at work to give a break from the intensity of the interaction that can happen at home. Maybe what we need is just a holiday.
I will ponder this further to figure out how we could manage a holiday. A change from the routine, something to look back on in fond memory and perhaps to have again at some point when it is needed again.
I remember having great little holidays as a kid, those things out of the ordinary. My dad and mom could be quite spontaneous at time. I really appreciate that in some ways.
Can one plan to be spontaneous? I suppose so because if I want to involve my hubby and children then a certain ammount of planning is required.
On top of that, I do need to get some rest so I can better cope with the demands of my day.
Thanks for listening.
— Kareen
Sun, Jan 21
I don’t mind listening and wish I could be there to help. We went for a lot of holidays when I was younger – all 6 children and fairly “poor” but my parents wanted us to live and experience whatever they could afford. It was certainly worth it.
It was commented today that since I am a relationships person, I must have pretty much been “starved” when I was working on my own. Starved. Deprived. etc. I replied, “That’s why I just gorge myself on relationships now.”
HUGS Kareen and though I am not around the corner, I am always interested in what you want to share. Even when life gets busy and we don’t email as much, I still think of you often and pray for you. I count you as a dear friend. :)
— Carolanne · Wed, Jan 24th , 2007 · 5:05am · §