New Year?

Here I sit at the end of one year and peeking over the edge into the new one to come. I tend to get a little contemplative this time of year anyway as my birthday is in a few days as well.

This last year in a lot of ways has gone by so fast. I sometimes felt overwhelmed by how fast it was going by and feeling like I was missing out on doing a lot of things that were important or at least important to me.

In less then one week we will be into 2007 and I will be 48. I don't know how this can be true because time is such an abstract concept and to say I don't feel 48 is kind of odd. I mean what does 48 feel like?

I don't really feel any different then I did at 20 except for perhaps some wisdom and I do get tired faster.

So do I have any plans, hopes, or dreams for this year? I don't know, other then wanting to live each day as it comes so that at the end of a week I don't look back to say what happened?, but can look back and say wow, what a trip!

I can't say I have any real regrets either, sometimes I wonder how things would be if I had made different choices but for the most part that is a waste of precious time. I can't change the past, I can remember it and hopefully learn from it, but as the wise man says, I only have today, the present.

In some ways, I have completed some life time dreams. I may not be published, but I have written and there are people who read what I have written. I have learned new ways to express myself through art and even took up ringing bells this last year.

I have become more comfortable with who I am and though there are still some things I would like to change and I hope to continue to grow as a person, I think, I have turned out ok.

If I start listing all my blessings now, this blog will be far too long so I will just hit the high lights.

I have been given a husband who loves me, 3 wonderful children, a home, a job, a dog who thinks I am queen, relatives who are for the most part ok or at least make for good stories. I have been blessed with many friends and lets just say my life is full and I am learning to be content.

— Kareen
Sat, Dec 30^th, 2006 · 8:19pm ↑

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