Refocus
I think I have let some things get out of focus.
Sensing a bit on edge or perhaps just the culmination of being tired and wondering where I am headed?
I have always been a bit of an optimist and a dreamer which for the most part is not bad but sometimes I forget that time is going on by and I may not get to all my dreams in my lifetime. Not sure if that is necessarily a bad thing either. I guess you could say I am seeking to be a little more content in how things are, not complacent, just content. Sort of a coming to terms with this is it, lets make the best of it.
I can hardly even type it but I am 46 years old and odds are that most of my life is behind me and not ahead. Though I do so look forward to Heaven, I know there is still much to do here and maybe feeling a little like I need to sort out what I will accomplish because I won't be able to get it all done.
I don't suppose I have time to get a whole new education and career off the ground, not that anyone would take me seriously. I was not even considered for receptionist positions in this city though I do have experience and am more then capable.
I have been getting on good at my present job and some opportunities are there for me, so I think, unless I see a clear change of direction to continue in this path. I am appreciated for my abilities and have grown in my confidence.
I am also, praying for the ones I work with. They know that I am a retired pastor and without shoving anything down any throats, they know if they want to talk to me about anything, I am a listening ear.
Another area of refocus or continuing to evolve, is where my family is concerned. Being a mom is my favourite as well as my toughest job. That's the one that keeps me on my knees and also gives me the greatest joys. Even though my babies are grown up, they are still my babies, I don't think that will ever change. Just as God has carved me in the palm of His hands, my kids are carved into my heart.
Then there is the precious man God gave to me. I am so blessed that we have been able to share together, not only these 3 children, but also to have over 23 years together. He is not well, and it was brought home to me again today that life is fragile and we don't know how much time we do have, so every day is precious.
I guess you could say that my focus is on God and all the precious gifts He has given me.
— Kareen
Fri, Oct 14
I agree with what you’re saying, and my only thoughts to give you are Is. 40:29-31.
Love,
Carolanne
— Carolanne · Sat, Oct 15th , 2005 · 1:29am · §